unfolding...

SELF
A word with a dual worth
You can be all it: Boasting Ego
or
You can be fighting to find: Real Self

I believe there is a thin line between the two as you are always rediscovering yourself ,there are times wherein your acts & thoughts boost you or can butcher all you have been telling yourself since you were young.

I have learnt today, Any expectation is poison to happiness.
Fault is not with people its with you,
today, they like you
tommorow, it can be someone else?


Thanks to glory... and eternal process
grown a little inch again.

A drop in her eye!

A book worm boy,
and street smart girl,
a twinkle in her eye,
turned into a smile,
began to share,
nights grew longer for conversations,
figured the likes & dislikes,
Argued like hell,
and fought every other second,
made no friends all this while,
Time was for only him,
and he was never for her,
it got awkward,
she wanted to be free,
he agreed like a gentlemen,
and still were friends,
with diluting trust,
things went ugly,
only leaving....
A drop in her eye!

Dream meet Reality!!!

Experienced one of the most eternal feeling,
Hearing the birds chirping with the first ray of Sun,
Feeling the sand sinking me in,
a white labrador, licking me for nothing,
The first rains and the fragrance generating a very positive aura...

ok All this sound poetic and very realistic but the most heavenly feeling for me was when I was a reason for A smile on my Moms face!
I love You mom! Ummmmaaaaah!

@ AFF.. I got animated!

23rd August began for me even before the dawn,
The set - up, the bags, and the grand feeling of being at the peak,
Face of life & light when I got up this morning was different,
I was numb before I entered the venue,
Unknown faces...but people made me happy,
now the fun begins... we were late!
The guests were flowing throughout the day,
All the speakers had started walking in...
I knew all of them..we had the best!
yeah! its true!
For me it was great experience and an fantastic opportunity to be learning from them,
I am excited & damn kicked to be doing it soon al over again,
My dreams and fears both have come true this time,
I wish the Next time only the DREAMS and its glory comes my way...

Ummmmaah to my team and lotsssa Thanks to all my speakers.

The LIE is with me :) (:

Something is shifting around;
Turning for the dreams that pinch me inside.
The awe that reflects me right now is " clueless"
The fear,
The anxiety,
The curiosity,
The excitement,
means a lot but yet nothing!
the freedom to express... is boiling in me!
but now I resist the temptation and ignore to move on!
for me that I love is mine...
Probably i have different ways to "my thing" or " my responsibilities"
.... who made the statement....
"There Is a way you do it"
I do it my way...and I do it
appreciated or not?!?
I am ok!
For al you know is that I am Wrong :) :(

The dawn has just arrived...

Thoughts have their own meaning,
Words need to be more mature,
Dreams are a reflecion of you,
Falling in the act of what you want to do,
Thinking the right or the wrong....Is dangerously serious,
You act in the manner you want to... Just that the decisions may or may not be influenced by the people,
But you stand responsible for youself more than your acts - Difference of perspective.

Freaky Yet Nice!!

In a room with the contemporary look
And very little light falling on the collage of classic movies (hardly seen any),
I met a guy twice my age,
people lover & highly demanding,
In him was a person who could read me like book and my eyes were contradicting it.
Things went crazzzy by every minute,
Was feeling like I am being observed critically but yet this very positive aura around,
Not nervous but cautious,
Was from a different breed... way way ahead of time still very much in the present,
You can learn from everyone & every mistake,
hahahhahaahahaha... had a great time...
As it is always great fun to meet a new species of mankind! :)

on top of the world today!!!!! :)

Thought the sky is too high to touch,
Thought I was too small to reach there,
The ideologies and principles will only stay till the end,
But I guess the journey has just started and there is still too much to explore,
The dreams are finally coming true.. of being the best
But wanna thank everyone who always stood by me,
And all the people who took special time out to teach me every little detail,
A BIG Thank YOU to everyone..
Not achieved anything but I feel closer to the sky today!
Ummmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah to all of you.
The journey has just begun!

On a world - ride??

Yeah! It seems damn vague but the world today is trying to sell me something new, Shouting out loud : “change for the betterment of you?”
So let go of all that you treasured,
Each thought,
Every little gig..all your pranks,
Leave your laughter and smile,
Redefining the meaning of happiness - "growing up"
what made you happy yesterday, today you crib about it!
when you used to be "honest" now you are a "diplomatic"!
where is this norms .. coming from .. and why do people need to follow it!
Yes ! change is the rule of nature,
if it is adding value and directed to righteously owned growth and not simply ape without understanding the reason of the being for it to able to change you as a human being totally.

I am sorry, I cant kill "Me".
Not gonna be another one to accept norms that are artificial and not traditional for sure.

"Be true to yourself, to enjoy the glory of Me in life"

Addiction....

Sometimes u r addicted to the best,
Sometimes u r addicted to the bad,
friends... can never be either
they r merely a refelection of u,
But a sweet addiction to me,
world seems to be great suddenly,
places make you cozy,
and talks are never ending,
gossips add the spice of life.
But for me the oldest and the best addiction is
truly F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

tried to write a song...

labz kuch na kahe,
par kehde yeh aakhen tujhe,

labz hum na sune,
par sunle hum dhadkan teri,

chaho toh...
chaho toh,

Aajao tum oh janeja!

hum kuch na kahe..
aur tum jan lo yun humein,
tum mere rab ho,
meri chahat ho
meri dhadkan bhi
aaooo na
aaooo na
aajao tum janeja...

ke zindagi ab katti nahi jaye...
nahi jaye tere bin!

to happy...

there has to be a reason for this happiness that I feel around,
It's vague but I can see it, It s weird but I can feel it,
there is nothing on this earth that can take this away from me
Its the feeling of fulfillment,
being close to heaven.
to be true!!

At peace...

my body and soul are relaxed today,
I am tired of crying,
I am tired of being fake,
I want to be "ME"
I am not turning back
I am bold but not foolish, to see the consequences and not react to it
I am being me or rather a new version of me...
"Still a kid at heart,
A little manipulated by the corporate world;
A little less responsive and more of responsibilities'
a little wired
but better than living half lives."

Still.. living life KINGSIZE

why?

Is something strangling me and not facing the fun to be,

Is something holding me back and allowing me to move ahead,

Is someone so important to you that you can really see rest of the world,

Is the freshness of the glee disappeared from my face,

Is the joy turned back to glory coz I was gullible then,

What is it?

why is it that I can't smile without thinking of him?
why is it that I can't rejoice the joy that I see in tomorrow without him?
why is it so???

All the friends and foe to you....


"Never hurt a heart as the guilt is going to kill you, even if the heart is not pumping any more for you."

much awaited...

Night and days were all same,
planning and canning over the minutest issue,
that to over conference calls,
All with flaming tempers,
but " For god's sake" we went
and hands down no regrets!


Individuals indifferent but their acts connected them,
Like every other trip even this had a fight "major one's"
and ironically I was not A part of it.
everything sorted then the sun rise from the darkest clouds,
we went to "11 East street Cafe"
we took the restaurant over our head,
and complimented every official possible.

The reason for much awaited weekend,
was simply having Fun and in our terms "Chilling"
with beer and vodka flowing across,
and every minute of pakoo jokes,
we lived moments to the fullest,
though to achieve this chemistry we took time,
but we made the most of it in the journey and post it, that day.

Cheers to us!

Hoping to enjoy the same fun, when we meet tomorrow!

I am thankful about…

For the freedom I have,
Every bite I eat,
Or the intellect I share,
For being able to express,
Understanding perspectives,
For things I have
Thank you for being a friend,
Thank you for being there for me,
You man a lot to me
But more for this soul
I can add smiles
I can fight against the wrong
Every little thing…
For dreams
For imagination
For every little thing.

World!

Two years under the same roof,
Spending moments good or bad (does not matter),
you abuse if someone stamps on your foot,
and dont even care when a colleague is bledding,
you sit in a cozy cabin & bitch about the whole world.
the intellect,
the knowledge,
the learned,
makes no difference to me,
If you have no HUMANITY!
"Be a human... Grow Up!"

I'm turning back

Every heart has a dream,
you always want to
fulfill them,
live them,
But today, I'm
a little different;
a little carefree;
I'm not gonna wait;
I'm not gonna try;
it will happen.
I'll fulfill every dream in the real sense...
I'm turning back
I'm turning back
I wanna see my true love,
I wanna see the real me,
I' m turning back to relive
" the real ME."

HERO!

Everytime I am being called that, I smile
Everytime I see the trust, I smile
Like a father he is to me;
When he blesses me with his smile;
Things are still so same but different;
People around you make such a difference;
They can make you stay and feel good about being there,
They can make your presence feel shallow,
But the thing is
whom you allow to affect you more
Its the good or the bad!

Its "ME".. i hope you get it!?!?

In a dark mile while I am walking through,

I see a new light,

I don’t know

Whether it’s the sun or it’s the inner me,

I do not wanna hurt anyone

Not even myself

But my destination is far apart than anyone can ever imagine ….

I know where I am going

“Just living in the moment” but still

I love what ever it is

I am true to myself

I am happy

I make the world happy

That’s me

The angel in disguise

Don’t ever see me crying because those tears are not for you!!!

“Love you for giving eyes inside me!”

look through the norms.... contd

Today, walking down the lane,

I overhear someone talking about Rodericks,

“He still lies down on the grass,

Wife close to his heart and the son being his support to his right,

He talks to them shares everything with them, even today.

He is truly the crazy old man.”

Sometimes it is so touching that “love prevail.”

The feelings can’t die it can only be suppressed,

The emotions are indispensable in a dignified character,

The love for flesh is not life

The love of the soul is Immortal.

For my darling!

I am crying since morning,

As I see someone who is not me,

I am crying since morning,

Since I see so much chaos around m e

I am sad

I am depressed

But my dearest darling,

The truth is right in front of your face

Accept it.

I do not know the future,

But all I want is you

As a spectator,

As a friend,

As a protector,

As a lover,

In you I see my future

In you I see in everyone

But for you my darling

Its dreams,

Its friends,

And your Protectors.

Still I am Happy,

Not because you are,

Because I opt to be “ME.”

Secret!

I found it or rather realized it,
I belive its there with every human being
But not all understand and imply it.
The mantra of being happy
Spending time with yourself,
Being there for your loved ones,
feeling the same
all the time
there has to be something
there has to be something!!!
That will bring smiles forever!

Expect the Unexpected…

Never thought I could celebrate my birthday like this as well,

The most simplistic way,

Doing nothing but all that I wanted to!

With a friend who cared enough for me to smile,

Someone who cried with me when I cried,

Some people just touch your souls without even you realizing it,

It was special then before, weird yet special.

Thanks!

For understanding, living and loving each moment we had together.

You are my birthday gift…

A friend!
with whom life celebrates My Birthday…. Always! (I wish!)

People say:

Some moments never return,

Walking on a narrow, silent road,

Thinking of someone whom you hold close.

Diluting yourself with the raindrops,

Understanding truth of “the special one” ,

And smiling on ... the silly fights,

I would never want to relive moments,

They are all unique experiences,

Thank God! Some moments never return

But I hope people do return, ensuring new experiences.

Just held by time

Glorious days, all the first times;

In the rain, with the sun;

Crying, sharing, and feeling everything seems to truss me

Can’t leave the continuous present…

But am excited about

The flamboyant and reluctant today this seems like “a dream”.

But it’s gentle and is caring

It’s going faster than an express

Don’t want to leave this gateway to an unknown destination…

I feel sick, when there is a play of emotions

Nothing is rational

Nothing is logical

Everything is spell bound

Everything turns into selfish solutions

But for sure it’s not only about me

And am trying my best not to hurt anyone!

high on thoughts

Life has given me a different high,

On the thought of being a butterfly.

To climb the ladder,

And reach those heights.

Share the space with tiny stars,

Fill all the hearts with lots of love!

Right or wrong

Is for you to decide

I do what my heart says,

Have all the fun in wandering,

By the leaf and in the sky

I am a girl of dual world,

Don’t limit myself and don’t cry to limits!?!

today...

Today...

Was a weird day…

Things appear to be so dramatic,

People are so emotional,

But

Why does everyone want things to go as they wish, (everyone including me)

Why do people do not understand the other persons point of view,

Why do they listen to their stupid brains and not their kind hearts,

why are we so compelled to do things that we never want to do,

Today!

I did not want to say SORRY for expressing what I think was practical for a particular situation,

But I did because I knew that he felt bad, bad because of me!

That hurt me

That compelled me

TO DO SO! Against my will!

One part of me is happy and the other is sad

But what’s even worst is I can’t figure out

What is it that my HEART wants to tell me and what my BRAINS ????