Thinking Thinking Thinking.....!

its gonna be different.
not that I am scared of change,
not that I am unsure of anything,
but I am still questioning...
but I still fail a little stagnant!

I wish...
I was not a girl (for the first time ever),
Did not have to live without my loved ones in a far far away land,
I feel a little cursed,
I feel a little sour,
I know its a beckoning of a new, fresh, sweet tomorrow,
but even then,
I feel i will be dead for a few days,
and then again take a new birth!

I want to be me in my life today & tomorrow!

I wish,
I could stop thinking and clearly hear and act as per my heart commands!

welcome to the family

The day I saw you,
you were new to me...
the curiosity to know,
the urge to share,
the want for you,
were are all very new!

Speculations, social norms, thoughts & fears...
with you they flew in no time!

your confidence & your expectations from "US",
made me more more fickle every second.

I still do not know, whether I am clear,
I still do not Know, whether this is right,
But for me the way you make me feel,
the way you make me smile,
its good enough a reason,
for me to be a part of "US"

a little numb!

I don't know what it was,
I don't know why it was,
I don't feel anything...
Eye drops,
pain for vain,
you were not nothing for me but
now YOU are!
it hurts when you say 'now' something you never said before :(
but I cant feel it now...
numb numb numb
this is how I feel!!